Why Are You In My Head
I should hate you, of all the things I shouldn't care. But I do and it's been a constant barrage since.
I'm not angry with you, I get you were just trying to protect yourself, hell so was I. But the things you said about me not really caring are so far from the truth. I did care and I hated how screwed up things got. Especially how fast it went south, and of course losing you.
Here's the worst part though, I watched my world fall apart, so quickly from having everything to be being left with nothing. A few very dark and very low days, and as the fog clears you're on my mind. You shouldn't be, you shouldn't be in my head but I can't clear the thoughts. I can't clear the fact that apparently I still care and a lot more than thought or even should.
I wonder if I reached out how would you react, we can be together now, the way we wanted to be. No more hiding, no more second girl. You would be first and priority as you always should have been. I'd would enjoy that.
It's strange how much these thoughts have been in my head of late. I meant it when I said you completed a piece of me, the piece always missing and I had all but given up on ever finding. You've been in my head since we first met, that hasn't changed only gotten stronger. And now I'm left wanting you, wanting to share my life with you. Take the little world we created and make it everything we wanted it to be forever.
It's a shame you'll never see this, because I once told you if I was single I'd make you mine in a heartbeat. Life dictates I can't. But maybe that isn't forever, maybe once certain things are dealt with. And I forgive you by the way, maybe I'll come to collect what is mine. I will take you away from the hurt of your past and together we'll create something better, together in our own world. I don't buy you don't care. Just as I do you went into protection mode, to protect what you have. But I know you miss me, miss our little world. And given chance I will give you it back, without the hidden aspect. We will be free to just be. I can show a world you can barely imagine, isn't that why we went as far as we did? Because just as you fit my missing piece, I filled yours.
I don't know why you're in my head so much, but you're all I can think about. I guess I must be crazy after all.
I'm not angry with you, I get you were just trying to protect yourself, hell so was I. But the things you said about me not really caring are so far from the truth. I did care and I hated how screwed up things got. Especially how fast it went south, and of course losing you.
Here's the worst part though, I watched my world fall apart, so quickly from having everything to be being left with nothing. A few very dark and very low days, and as the fog clears you're on my mind. You shouldn't be, you shouldn't be in my head but I can't clear the thoughts. I can't clear the fact that apparently I still care and a lot more than thought or even should.
I wonder if I reached out how would you react, we can be together now, the way we wanted to be. No more hiding, no more second girl. You would be first and priority as you always should have been. I'd would enjoy that.
It's strange how much these thoughts have been in my head of late. I meant it when I said you completed a piece of me, the piece always missing and I had all but given up on ever finding. You've been in my head since we first met, that hasn't changed only gotten stronger. And now I'm left wanting you, wanting to share my life with you. Take the little world we created and make it everything we wanted it to be forever.
It's a shame you'll never see this, because I once told you if I was single I'd make you mine in a heartbeat. Life dictates I can't. But maybe that isn't forever, maybe once certain things are dealt with. And I forgive you by the way, maybe I'll come to collect what is mine. I will take you away from the hurt of your past and together we'll create something better, together in our own world. I don't buy you don't care. Just as I do you went into protection mode, to protect what you have. But I know you miss me, miss our little world. And given chance I will give you it back, without the hidden aspect. We will be free to just be. I can show a world you can barely imagine, isn't that why we went as far as we did? Because just as you fit my missing piece, I filled yours.
I don't know why you're in my head so much, but you're all I can think about. I guess I must be crazy after all.