You Woke It Up
Do you know what the hardest part of my job is? Holding yourselkf together, despite what the residents will say, or do. Keeping yourself focused on their recovery. Its an outlet for them, a way to deal with their own demons. But never in 17 years have I ever cracked under their words. Until today!
We ended up having to restrain our mutaul friend, he managed to rip out some of the stitches, and lost blood. But what happened after we had him restrained for his own safety, that I'll never forget, watching those tormented eyes focus, shift and something inside shifted. I always laughed when he used to say you can't kill what's already dead. Now I know how he survived those suicide attempts in 2006, he wasn't joking. You see he always said there was a part of him, locked so deep down even the demon was afraid of what existed there, today it got free, a name I've heard before Hunter Silverblood.
Until today I thought you were coldest person I'd ever met, you broke 3 peoples hearts in less than 24 hours, Emily still cries for you, incase you care. I am finding it hard to believe this was anything more than anb assault on the very person you claimed to love. But what you've unleashed, is unforgivable. Listening as he reminded me of my own sins against him, placing me right there at your side, because I brought you back into his life, because despite him telling me not to, I did it anyway thinking I was helping him, but to hear him say I planned to bring him down just as much as you, that cut to the very core, I wish I could say it didn't feel personal but it was. There is no care in that thing, no heart, no soul, not anymore. What you've unlocked, is viscious, cold and has no shred of humanity.
But hearing him talk, no emotion, just straight words that are as a sharp as any knife, as viscious as anything I have ever seen. Is it a he I wonder? I'm not supposed to think like this, it's still him, except it isn't my friend isn't there anymore replaced by something so sadistic if it gets loose, I shudder to think what he could do to anyone in his path. It said it has a plan for redemption, that scares me, but hearing him speak to me as if he knew my heart and then tore me apart piece by piece I left I cant face that thing again, but he's right this is on me too.
We ended up having to restrain our mutaul friend, he managed to rip out some of the stitches, and lost blood. But what happened after we had him restrained for his own safety, that I'll never forget, watching those tormented eyes focus, shift and something inside shifted. I always laughed when he used to say you can't kill what's already dead. Now I know how he survived those suicide attempts in 2006, he wasn't joking. You see he always said there was a part of him, locked so deep down even the demon was afraid of what existed there, today it got free, a name I've heard before Hunter Silverblood.
Until today I thought you were coldest person I'd ever met, you broke 3 peoples hearts in less than 24 hours, Emily still cries for you, incase you care. I am finding it hard to believe this was anything more than anb assault on the very person you claimed to love. But what you've unleashed, is unforgivable. Listening as he reminded me of my own sins against him, placing me right there at your side, because I brought you back into his life, because despite him telling me not to, I did it anyway thinking I was helping him, but to hear him say I planned to bring him down just as much as you, that cut to the very core, I wish I could say it didn't feel personal but it was. There is no care in that thing, no heart, no soul, not anymore. What you've unlocked, is viscious, cold and has no shred of humanity.
But hearing him talk, no emotion, just straight words that are as a sharp as any knife, as viscious as anything I have ever seen. Is it a he I wonder? I'm not supposed to think like this, it's still him, except it isn't my friend isn't there anymore replaced by something so sadistic if it gets loose, I shudder to think what he could do to anyone in his path. It said it has a plan for redemption, that scares me, but hearing him speak to me as if he knew my heart and then tore me apart piece by piece I left I cant face that thing again, but he's right this is on me too.
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