I Think He's Gone
I'm pretty sure i watched a good man die today, not really but his spirit. You see this man gave everything to a woman, and she repaid him with a betrayal so cold. The same girl he's been talking about here. He was arrested Friday after risking everything to spend time with her, she repaid him with a bogus charge and after his release in the late hours of Saturday, he cut deep.
I was ready to clock off and go home to my darling Emily, a little with a heart of gold. When I heard his name on the radio call, I rushed to the A&E department as thery brought him in, he smiled weak, but he saw me, and then I saw it fade, that vibrant spirit that was truly second to none I'd ever met.
It took 140 stitches, to stop him bleeding out, I was thankful in the weary hours of that morning, I called his ex gf to let her know he wouldn't be there to see their children, to let her know he had survived but would likely be gone for a while. They admitted him to the psych ward yesterday. And today I watched the last shred of him fade, that spark that was so sweet and yet enticingly dark, he could tap into pieces of you, pieces you couldn't even imagine existed within you. Take you to places and then blow your world apart. He showed me life back in 2006. But today I watched his end.
Whatever remains of him now, it's hollow, cold, and sits silent simply staring, eery as it happens, there is no fight, no longer a love of life, of the darkest corners of your mind. He just simply isn't there anymore. I tried talking to him, but even in group there is nothing, the only signs of who he was the marks left at thew hands of his former lover with a knife she then turned upon him. I hope you read this, I hope you know that you broke him, if that was your intent, then everything we did for you, is on my head too. I have to live with the fact I handed his soul to you and you shattered him into a thousand pieces, he will never come back from this, my friend, my ally, my guide ripped from our world because you hated him so deeply.
He broke the law for you, gave his freedom for you. in the end as he promised he gave his life for you. And to you my friend I'm sorry, I couldn't help you when you needed me the most, my part in this is unforgivable.
I was ready to clock off and go home to my darling Emily, a little with a heart of gold. When I heard his name on the radio call, I rushed to the A&E department as thery brought him in, he smiled weak, but he saw me, and then I saw it fade, that vibrant spirit that was truly second to none I'd ever met.
It took 140 stitches, to stop him bleeding out, I was thankful in the weary hours of that morning, I called his ex gf to let her know he wouldn't be there to see their children, to let her know he had survived but would likely be gone for a while. They admitted him to the psych ward yesterday. And today I watched the last shred of him fade, that spark that was so sweet and yet enticingly dark, he could tap into pieces of you, pieces you couldn't even imagine existed within you. Take you to places and then blow your world apart. He showed me life back in 2006. But today I watched his end.
Whatever remains of him now, it's hollow, cold, and sits silent simply staring, eery as it happens, there is no fight, no longer a love of life, of the darkest corners of your mind. He just simply isn't there anymore. I tried talking to him, but even in group there is nothing, the only signs of who he was the marks left at thew hands of his former lover with a knife she then turned upon him. I hope you read this, I hope you know that you broke him, if that was your intent, then everything we did for you, is on my head too. I have to live with the fact I handed his soul to you and you shattered him into a thousand pieces, he will never come back from this, my friend, my ally, my guide ripped from our world because you hated him so deeply.
He broke the law for you, gave his freedom for you. in the end as he promised he gave his life for you. And to you my friend I'm sorry, I couldn't help you when you needed me the most, my part in this is unforgivable.
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