The Wall

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It sucks when you're headed for a break, that wall you hit so hard that no piece of you survives. The last gasp effort to stop it only makes the collision that much faster.

Love makes us strong, but it's also the reason most people break so bad. It's definately the reason I'm about to shatter so spectacularly. But not the love I thought, sure that sucks but, your that's the one that started this. It took a while to see through the anger and frustration, but you are at the heart and soul of everything.

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